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I think a main reason I feel very scattered lately is because I can't devote 100% to anything. I can't give 100% to my boyfriend because that would deny my family and friends (and vice versa.) I can't give 100% at work because there is stuff at home I'm waiting to accomplish too. I can't give 100% to working out because ...well...I'll get back to you with a reason, just know that I can't. ;) I know that 20% to most of these things would be good, but I can't seem to find the way to balance everything. Lately I feel like an emotional wreck who wants to get everything and give everything. That will wear a girl out.

I hate:
Watching a movie you remember loving and thinking you were wrong in liking it, second-guessing myself, whistling, people that color flowers with food coloring (there are so many colors of flowers already do you REALLY need it different?) chewed gum on the side of a plate, squinting (people wonder why I have 500 pairs of sunglasses, this is why), forgetting what I was going to say, having to ask for things that should be obvious, gossip (and the people that spread it), changing cat litter, bad tippers (and I've never been a waitress), places that serve Pepsi products without having Mountain Dew (you don't have Diet Coke OR Mountain Dew? Seriously? bring me a gun, then), forgetting things I always thought I'd remember (people's names from elementary school), the phrase "I digress", people that argue only to realize they are wrong and yet they keep arguing, the word "potential" (seems like most people mean "too-bad-you-could-be-great-but-you-suck", the fact that it has taken me 3 weeks to find a purse I'd like and I'm still looking, watering flowers, knowing someone has the wrong impression, bills.

I love:
Unexpected hugs, blueberry muffins, buying a cd for a specific song and realizing you like the rest of the songs even more than the original, Target, people that quote movies, people that can identify the movies I quote, friends that can see through my bull----, sleeping in, warm blankets on a cool night, when my cellphone lights up the half second before it starts to ring, finding pictures I forgot about, typing fast without making mistakes, being close to my siblings, gerbera daisies, people that take the time to learn my facial expressions, looking forward to something, airline reward trips, Hell's Kitchen and Last Comic Standing, a random email (no, myspace messages don't count), kissing my boyfriend, being crafty (even if I'm bad at it), people that take pictures (so I can be in a few too), playing Tetris, people that speak song lyics (most of them are hysterical), Jerry Seinfeld Stand-up, sirius radios, World Series of Pop Culture, new scrapbook stuff, text messaging, getting things on sale, driving.

Too long

It's been too long since I've updated this.

Jason is still wonderful. I still don't understand why he is so patient with me and what in the world could be in it for him half the time but whatever. Yesterday afternoon was a little emotional for me but he held me tight and made me feel better. He keeps laughing at me cause I'm thanking him so much but I don't know that he understands how much that meant to me. Sometimes being a girl really sucks.

Work is not the most exciting thing right now but I've found some entertainment that I'm enjoying. Hopefully time will start to pass soon.

Sorry...I'm not really worth reading today, am I?

This was a fun weekend. Fo shizzle.

Friday night after work Marla, Asia and I went to a crop at The Mad Scrapper - 6 hours of scrapbooking in a scrapbook store so no making excuses like "well, I don't have ____ so I can't do this" because it's all right there. The only thing they don't have is a photo maker to adjust pictures (enlarge or shrink). Oh or a computer to type something to put on a page, but those are both things my scrapbook store will have. Anyway. I digress. (by the way, I really hate that word. I'm surprised I actually thought it and mentally approved it to put in here. Weird.)

Anyway, Boyfriend and I hadn't seen each other all week and I was missing him a LOT and he knew it. So he text me to ask what time my thing was starting and he didn't think he could make it to where I was from his work in time to eat or grab coffee or anything but hey, at least he tried. :) The 3 of us girls all got there and got all set up and some other lady walked in and said "someone has a present on their car" and Marla looked and said "Becky, it's YOUR car!" I went to see - Boyfriend had come by and left me a card and a teddy bear! Awww...so sweet.

I was the only one that stuck out the entire crop - Asia had to leave early and Marla got tired - wimps. ;) So Saturday I got to sleep in and get ready for Boyfriend and my oh-so-special date. It was VERY fun. We went to the Seattle Aquarium - I hadn't been there in AGES and it was fun to be with him since he knows ALL the fish. (scuba dude) After that we went to the Pavillion next door and played the arcade games and took a couple photo booth pics - very fun. Then it was off to dinner.

We went to Ruth's Chris Steakhouse downtown. Oh. My. Word. New favorite restaurant. SO GOOD. It was great cause we were casually dressed up (jeans and a nice shirt type thing) and didn't feel underdressed and there were prom kids there and they didn't look overdressed - it was such a great atmosphere. And the food was unbelievable!! I highly recommend it! It's worth every penny!

After dinner we headed to our 3rd and final event- going to see X-men at the Cinerama. The Cinerama is so cool - they only have one huge screen and almost every show sells out even though the theater can hold 800 people. The screen is curved so every seat has a good view - it's so cool. I love going there. And even though Boyfriend and I had only seen parts of Xmen1 and none of Xmen 2, we still liked the third one. :)

It was good. Sunday we ran around putting various things in storage to give ourselves more living space in each of our rooms at our respective houses then went to Ikea to wander and ended up watching a movie at my house. It was low-key and fun. I heart that boy.. :)

Ouch

I scratched my eye. Again. Last time I had to go without my contacts for about a week while I did some drops and stuff but this time - no insurance so I need to just take care of myself. No contacts, lots of drops (reading the labels carefully - no worries) and some ibuprofen. I'm tough. Or something.

I got all my scrap crap packed for the big crop on Friday night. I had thought I would organize everything at home then pick and choose specifically what I wanted to work on and only take that stuff, but that's not exactly how it turned out. It was a LOT easier to go through and put together "probable" stuff then guarunteed...and I was looking through the pictures and still couldn't figure out what I was gonna scrap. I might sneak off to Michaels or JoAnns and pick up an 8.5" by 11" scrapbook and start working on events with Jason. I have a sentimental scrapbook and I need to catch up on that, but I have a LOT of occasions to scrap too. It's an ongoing process. :)

I talked to Kyle for like 2 minutes last night on MSN Messenger. It was good. He has a girlfriend and seems to not care that I haven't been talking to him. I'm fine with that. And now I don't feel guilty either. Ha.

Anyway. Now I have to work. Peace out, homes.

Time to start fresh

I've had a blog for awhile but it's time for me to start fresh. I'll still keep the other one to share fun and exciting things with certain people but this one is for me.

Life is very confusing right now. I'm trying to get my debt under control but it's hard to completely change your lifestyle/spending habits - anyone that tells me otherwise is LYING. ;) I'm wanting to get in shape but have no money to buy better food and have no idea where to start. It's all seeming overwhelming.

I want to scrapbook but I feel like my life is disorganized and that I don't ever produce what I sat down to make and that gets irritating.

But I think that overall life is good. I have Jason whom I adore and my family behind me while I make some of the tough financial decisions so it's not all bad. I have a new job that is good, can take me far and I like it! I'm (as far as I know) in good health and ...have I mentioned Jason? That guy's amazing.

Anyway, this is my first thought dumping here. Maybe just of the day, maybe of the moment. Who knows? :)